Something happened for the first time last week since I have been engaged: I was completely calm. The closer we get to the wedding, the more I realize how many opportunities there are for a bride to panic, cry or just shift our mood.
Brides, we have a choice. A choice to flutter around in a panic, get bent out of shape about the shade of blue that doesn’t match everything else, drive our fiance crazy with details they aren’t so worried about anyway OR slow down and enjoy this moment. I have physically slowed down, my speech, my mannerisms and it’s only by the grace of God guiding me to have peace. God has given me a calm heart and is reminding me that my joy is not determined by my circumstances. If it was, the past week I would have been a rollercoaster of emotions. “Yay our new apartment!…OMG! We have so much to do!…I’m so thankful for everyone’s generosity!…AT&T is charging me for what??”
I am a wedding planner. I know what to do. In fact, to a fault, I’ve thought I had a lot of control over details. But there are still tons of circumstances outside of my control. I may not be able to get the flowers I was soo set on having from the beginning because they may be out of season still. It may rain. Heck, we may have a hurricane. I won’t be able to control everything so I have decided to be OK with whatever happens. At the end of the day, I really just can’t wait to be Tyler’s wife and that will happen with or without anemones.
Right now this moment is still running errands, waiting in lines, sitting in traffic, going back to stores to return said furniture piece I waited in line for yesterday that doesn’t fit our apartment but honestly I want to remember it. My life changes on Saturday and I don’t want to get caught up in a whirlwind and wake up Sunday thinking “That all went by too fast.”
I met with my day-of coordinator last Monday and she said I looked a lot calmer than she expected. I could not be more happy to hear it! I feel like I have learned so much this week about what a bride faces and what it takes to enjoy this experience, and so much through this whole process that I cannot wait to share with my brides!